The past few days that I have been taking photos of both sunrise and sunsets the sky was mostly covered with grey clouds. I can’t help but wonder if these clouds are reflections of my current state of mind- as if the sky can read me. Clouds humanize feelings. I’m sure some great cotton candy-like clouds signify happy and beautiful moods. On the other hand, grey and dark clouds can be likened to loneliness and sadness or even anxiousness.
The past three weeks my partner and I have decided to embark on another journey. We have planned and sorted things out and finally came to a decision that we will be moving to the sunshine state. There were lots of reasons we have considered and why we were doing this and ultimately, we both agreed that finding a place that is warmer than the Cape is more beneficial to us. I wish that the Cape’s temperature stays on the 70’s year-round so we don’t have to leave.
“The only constant in life is change.” I have heard and read this quote perhaps a thousand times; and my life has been subjected to many changes as far as I can remember. And to many, including myself, change is something that I am having a hard time dealing with. It brings me anxiety and when the fear of the unknown sets in, I grapple. I tend to be comfortable sometimes to the things I get so used to, and in this case- my jobs and my photography. I have the convenience of less than a mile drive to work, and Cape Cod is pretty much a small area that you can drive to the beach within 5 minutes to capture a magnificent composition. Taking these luxuries away from me caused me an initial shock and disequilibrium. Then the rationalization comes in and I internalize the situation briefly. Afterwards, I start feeling better and embrace the change with a better perspective and a good insight and focus and understand why changes need to happen to move forward. I thank that my partner is always there to help me see the good through the obstacles.
The grey clouds in the sky are no different from how I feel in the last few days. When I have the first glimpse of them as I arrived at my selected location whether capturing a sunrise or sunset, I feel disappointed as it can hinder a perfect moment. But I stay despite of and study the entire perspective. And then I begin to see the silver lining, and become hopeful that it makes my composition better.
Happy Spring!
Sunset at Grey’s Beach, South Yarmouth, MA 03.19.2019